Hi. I'm Darrin, from Bedfordshire, England.

I was diagnosed HIV+ back in March 1989 when I was 24 and was told that nothing might happen for seven years, depending on how long I had had it.

So I went away thinking: That's it, I'm going to die. I contemplated suicide, but I could not actually do it and take my own life. I'm so happy I didn't.

Anyway, it came to the seven-year mark and I was extremely stressed and going through depression. I was losing weight and had thrush in my mouth. So I went to see the doc. He told me that if I didn't go on the meds I would be dead within 12 months.

So without question I took the meds. The first meds made me vomit, gave me diarrhea, and then gave me shingles. I was told to stop them immediately because they weren't working.

Then I went onto a second combination therapy of Abacavir, Didanosine, and Efavirenz. Within 3 months my health improved dramatically. But after a while, I was only able to eat one meal a day. I got extremely high cholesterol, felt depressed, and generally didn't feel good within myself.

After ten years of being on the meds, as a person who has always believed AIDS is manmade in some way, I started doing a year's research into AIDS dissidents. I decided back in August 2007 to stop taking my meds.

I now have a full appetite back, no longer feel down and depressed, and feel great from within.

I haven't seen a doctor since Aug 2007. I don't have a CD4 count either, and he has no idea I have completely stopped taking my meds. I have arranged an appointment for March 4th, 2009 to see Dr. Mark Nelson from the Kobler Centre at Chelsea and Westminster Hospital in London, who has been my doctor for ten years.

I have decided to now tell him that I stopped taking my meds 17 months ago. Now I am just your average man who lives an average life, and I'm not sure what questions to ask when he tries to convince me to take the toxic meds.

Thanks

Darrin

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